I was truely being tested last night.. It was supposed to be my last known night with him and he got drunk with the guys then fell asleep. Well he woke up later that night and called me. After I had gotten all dressed up and sat around waiting all night for his call. He apologized and expected to me to just accept it. Well, me being a person who wears all feelings on my sleeve, I couldn't hide the fact that it pissed me off that after all of this and being on the phone talking about his night for a half hour he still hadnt asked me to come over. No, instead he told me that he was going to be here next week and he'll get to see me then since he couldn't tonight. Now I was feumming!! He asked if I was mad about something and I couldn't hold it in any longer and told him that I was pissed because the fact that he may never see me again doesn't bother him one little bit. that he's just an in, out, on with life kind of guy. He got deffensive and said that I dont know him if thats what I really believe and asked me to come over. I went over and we talked for a few hours and things finally calmed down returned to normal. Well, I think I learned more about him last night then I learned in the last year. I thought I knew everything about him and found out that I really just knew almost everything. He told me all of the same stuff that my sister has been telling me since the day I told her about us. She says it's the reason we wont work and he says that even though we have all of those differences we still find a common ground and are able to hangout and be us. I agree with him. We do have alot of differences but that's what makes it interesting. We never run out of things to talk about. So now everything is fine and I get two set dates to look forward too..!!! This gives me a positive feeling about being apart. I got tested with the out with the boys thing and then was re asured that this is not the last time I will ever see Mr. love. So remember what I said about roller coaster?? This is my roller coaster. I thought that today would be a gloomy day, weeping over the loss of my love but it is quite opposit I am quite content. Im happy and ready to go out and have fun during this time alone. okay gotta go now. ttyl.
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Today's date: Mon, 19 Nov 2018 22:50:18 +0100